Monday, January 9, 2017

Where She Went.

Welcome back to my blog! I am doing very well with my reading goals. Surprisingly, I have now read more than eight books. I am currently reading my 11th book! At the beginning of the year, I found it very hard to read. Now, I enjoy reading more than anything. Lately, I have been reading a lot because of World History. One of the books I have read is The Kite Runner by Khaled Hosseini. This novel is about a man named Amir who recalls an event that happened 26 years ago when he was just a child.

In chapter one, Amir expresses that he regrets not doing anything when he witnessed his friend Hassan getting raped. He conveys that he still feels guilty although "that was a long time ago, but it's wrong what they say about the past, [he'd] learned, about how you can bury it. Because the past claws its way out" (Hosseini 6). As many years have passed, Amir still can't forgive himself.

Have you heard of the saying "the past is the past"? Some people truly do leave things in the past, but I don't. The past constantly haunts me. Growing up, I did not have a perfect family. There was always something going on at home. My parents were always fighting . When I was 11, I got home to my parents screaming and throwing dishes. I immediately locked myself in my room. The ruckus went on for about three hours. All of a sudden, it had all died down. There was no more yelling or dishes being thrown. Why is it so quiet now? Did they work everything out? Sadly, they did not. My mother had left. At 11, I really needed a mom. At 11, I was going through puberty. At 11, I started liking boys. At 11, I did not have my mother to talk to. I have always known that my mom had things she wanted to figure out on her own. Knowing her situation, I was still not at ease with her being gone. While my mother was gone, my dad had to take care of my little sister and I on his own. At this time, my sister was just 9 years old. She had a harder time with my mother being gone. Because my sister was so little, she didn't know much. My father tried his best making her happy while he was hurting too. For two months, everyone was a mess. I started being bad in school. I started making bad grades. I started talking back. I started slamming my door. I started rebelling. I started stealing. I started bullying kids. I was not the bigger sister I was supposed to be. Going home from school was tough. Most kids couldn't wait to go home, but I wanted to stay at school. At home, all I ever did was cry and cry. At school, I had people to talk to. School was a getaway for me. The two months went by and my mother finally returned. She had figure things out on her own. My mother was now happy and content with her life. Call me selfish, but I was mad at her more than ever. Why did she come back? She left us for all those months! She doesn't love us! LEAVE! For weeks, I did not talk to my mom. After those 3 weeks, I realized that she did love me. My mom and I now have a very healthy relationship. Although that we have a healthy relationship, I will never forget about what she had done to me when I was younger. This happened a long time ago, but it still haunts me every day. To this day, I still think about how I did not have a mother at age 11. I believe that your past defines who you are. What my mom had done is in the past, but I can't seem to trust her the way I used to. I love you mom. I love you, but I don't forgive you.

Sunday, December 18, 2016

Never Stop

Welcome back to my blog! As always, I am doing very well with my reading goals. I have read a total of nine books this school year. Having read nine books, I have met my reading goals. Out of all the books I read this year, I enjoyed only about five of them. When I first started reading this year, I was very slow. With the twenty minutes my teacher gives me to read everyday, my reading rate has greatly improved. Not only do I read in class, but I also read for about 30 minutes at home. As of right now, I am reading Ruth, A Portrait: The Story of Ruth Bell Graham by Patricia Cornwell . This nonfiction biography is about Ruth's journey being Billy Graham's wife.

In chapter 3, Ruth wrote a poem to Billy expressing that "[her] love has long [his]... since on that day when [they] first met: [she] will never forget how [he] just paused and smiled a bit, and then calmly helped [himself] to it" (Cornwell 67). In this poem, Ruth coneys that she will never stop loving her husband. She fell in love at first sight.

Love is a very strong and passionate feeling. You can love a lot of things in life including: family, food, friends, pets, books, movies, sports, art, etc. Although people love multiple of things, most people find love in other human beings. Some people do not believe in love at first sight, but I personally do. In relationships people fall in love when they are getting to know each other. You know that feeling you get when you immediately click with someone you just met?  That is how love at first sight feels. Love is amazing, but it does not always turn out how you wanted it to be. It is possible to fall out of love with someone. Nowadays, people fall out of love all the time due to a variety of reasons. Those reasons can include: too much fighting, someone better coming along, distance, or even just because the feeling is not there anymore. Although people sometimes fall out of love, they still have love for that person. Being in love with someone and having love for them is very different. I personally have love for a lot of people in my life, but I am not in love with all of them. I know a lot of grownups who got remarried after a divorce. All of them still have love for their previous significant other. Being in love with someone while having love for other people is a very normal thing. After break ups, most people still care for the other person. One can hide their feelings, but it is very hard to not care for someone who you were once so in love with. You can easily fall in love with someone at first sight, but that love may not always be for you. Some relationships do not work out, but better ones will come. Go out and spread love today!

Thursday, November 10, 2016

Shattered.

Hey there! Welcome back to my blog! I am on the right track for my reading goals. In the beginning of the year, I made a goal to read 8 books by the end of the year. It has now been 10 weeks into English and I have already accomplished my goal of reading 8 books. I have found the 20 minutes my teacher gives us to read in class everyday is very beneficial. Recently, I have not been reading before bed, but rather reading during lunch. I plan on reading more books this 9 weeks. Currently, I am reading The Fault in Our Stars  by John Green. This non fiction book is about two teenage kids, Augustus and Hazel who both have cancer and fall in love.

In chapter 3, as Augustus is confessing his love to Hazel, he is aware that "some people don't understand the promises they are making when they make them" (Green 156). Augustus understands that people don't mean what they say, but he explains to Hazel that his love for her is real. Hazel and Augustus are ill and they both know that they will die soon. Although their time together is limited, he promises to love her until the day that he dies.

I believe that being lied to is what gets you hurt the most in life. In relationships, people are always making promises about the future. I consider that lying because the future is unpredictable. Most of the time, people don't keep their promises. There are some people in this world who take the easy way out for everything they do. Imagine this. You are in a relationship, right? You and your boyfriend are fighting because he is scared that you will leave him. You keep telling him that you love him and that he makes you happy. He still won't drop it. You get tired of him whining, therefore you promise him that you will never leave him. You promise him this because you don't want to fight anymore. See how easy that is? I feel like in today's society, people make promises based on what they want the other person to hear. Last year, I was in a serious relationship. I am well aware that I am young, but I truly believe that I was in love with this person. He was my best friend and we did everything together. When I was dating him, I trusted him with my world. In our relationship, he promised me that no matter what the future holds, we will always remain close friends. Being ignorant and young, I believed him. A couple of months into the relationship, we broke up. After we broke up, we were still best friends. Being friends did not last a long time. He soon moved on with his life. For the longest time, I was devastated. HE PROMISED ME! HE PROMISED ME! HE PROMISED ME! HOW DARE HIM? Months have passed and I now know that promises are dangerous and they aren't always true. There are bad people in this world, but there are also genuine people. Promises are very powerful, be careful in the ones you believe.



Tuesday, October 11, 2016

A Shooting Star

               Like in my last blog, I am on the right track with my reading goals. I am still reading every night before bed and 20 minutes in English class. Because I am reading every day, my reading pace has really picked up. I find myself reading a lot lately. Out of the 8 books I have to read, I have already read 6. Currently I am reading Thirteen Reasons Why by Jay Asher. This book is about a teenage girl, Hannah who commits suicide and leaves thirteen tapes for a boy named Clay to listen to. Throughout the book, the audience discovers thirteen reasons why Hannah killed herself. 


               In chapter 6 Clay realizes "[he] can’t go back to how things were.  How [he] thought they were. All [he] really [has] is…now" (206).  In this moment he realizes things always seem different than they really are. Once a moment has passed, it's gone and there's no way you can fix your mistakes from the past. All that you have is the moment you are living in. Clay can't change the fact that Hannah killed herself, because it already happened. 
               In life, I find myself dwelling on the past a lot. I always think about what could have happened instead of what actually happened. With all the time I spend thinking about the past, I hardly enjoy living in the moment. Last year, I used to stress all the time about school. I had such a hard time balancing school and a social life. Getting bad grades made me so depressed because I tried so hard. It was constantly putting me down. Wanting to make my parents proud, I felt as if my bad grades made it impossible. Constantly being stressed out, I never found myself being truly happy. I was never happy, therefore, I wanted to make a change this school year. Although I am still trying by best to get good grades, I am no longer stressing about school. For example, I study really hard for a test and I get a bad grade, I would be totally fine with that because I did everything I could. Not stressing out over things I can not change has led me to being happy. I find myself so much happier living in the moment and enjoying every second of it. Treat every day like it is your last! 

Sunday, September 18, 2016

Love is a drug

     Surprisingly, I am on the right track with my readings goals! In my last blog, I made a goal to read before I go to sleep every night. Now, I can't go to sleep without reading for at least ten minutes. I find it very relaxing and good for me. After a couple of months, I finally finished Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone. Recently, I have started the book To Selena, With love. This novel is written by a famous star's husband. He wrote this as a love letter to her after she passed away.
     In Chapter 3 "Earning Selena's Trust", Perez tells multiple stories about him and Selena. They had a lot of happy memories, but they shared a couple of not so happy ones. He conveys that although they had a few bumps, "For as long as [he] lives, the day Selena died March 1st 1995, will always be a painful day. But [he] would do it all over in a heartbeat. For Selena" (203). 
      I find love so amazing. Love makes people do crazy and reckless things. Humans love different people, subjects, animals, songs, etc. People love different things, but everyone loves something. In love, people sometimes sacrifice their feelings just to make their significant other happy. In life, people will sacrifice anything for love. Love is important for humans to grow, bond, and learn. Although love can be painful, in some situations it is worth the pain. Love comes with happiness. Love comes with sadness. Love comes with anger. Love comes with problems, but love is love. Spread love today!

Wednesday, September 7, 2016

Reading: The Key to Success

                Hi! My name is Michelle Nguyen and I am a student at Hebron High School. Currently, I am a sophomore. When I was younger, I hated reading! I dreaded reading at school. The reason I hated reading so much was because it was forced. Being forced to read by my teachers or parents, I couldn't pick out the books I wanted to read. Other than not being able to pick out the books I wanted to read, I also didn't know how many books are out there. Grown up, I have learned to love reading so much! My favorite book would have to be The Color Purple by Alice Walker, which I actually read for a school assignment. I really enjoy exploring the book store. I truly believe reading makes you smarter. Although I don't get a lot of time to read, it's become one of my favorite things to do.  
               My goal this year is to read eight books. In class, my teacher gives us 20 minutes to read every day. On top of the 20 minutes, I could read about ten minutes before bed every night. Therefore I can achieve my reading goals. This year in English, I will be reading The Lord of the Flies and a nonfiction book of my choice. This leaves me with 6 more books to read. I usually read non fiction books, but I want to read at least one fiction book this year. If I make time to read, I believe that I can easily read 8 books this year.